Good days, bad moments would be the best way to describe where I'm at with adjusting to Sean's death.

Last night as I finally dropped off to sleep the thought crossed my mind that Sean's death and the accidental cause of it are something I can do nothing about. I can't impact someone else to avoid an accidental traffic accident and save their family this grief. I simply have to accept it and learn to live with what happened and how it has changed my life.

What I still CAN do is impact the lives and decisions of others in relation to the cancer monster. I CAN still promote awareness and I CAN still fundraise and I CAN still encourage people to have their physicals and follow up on them. None of this will bring Sean back but it might save another family from losing someone so precious to them...someone that could be saved. Sean approves. I'm sure of it.