It seems that this week has been exceptionally emotional. For me it was another week of "firsts" which I'm discovering each have their own special challenge. There was a continuous loop of so many past Easter celebrations with both of my boys playing in my mind. At times it made me smile, other times it made me weep. Through all of this I tried desperately to maintain some level of functionality - for my own sanity I think.

Saturday I got to babysit my grandson Jakob. He was zipping around in his usual 16 month old way when I noticed that he kept toddling over to a framed photo of Sean that I keep on an endtable. He carefully pulled it to the edge of the table, pointed at Sean's face, babbled something and then started waving to Sean. For the next several hours he kept going back to repeat the whole process. Needless to say I was in tears.

On Sunday Jason, Jakob and Jeff traveled to my sister's home for Easter dinner. I just couldn't face the holiday in my house. While we were there, Jakob found the only photo of Sean that my sister has displayed, pulled it within reach, pointed, babbled something and started waving to his Uncle Sean. Repeatedly.

So here is my question. Do you think that it is possible that Jakob sees Sean now? Could Sean be with Jakob in a way that Jakob recognizes his photo?

I hope so.

Love you kiddo.