This weekend has been rough. It started with a note I found on Friday at Sean's accident site. It had been left by the driver of the van that hit Sean/Sean hit. When I'm feeling stronger perhaps I'll post the message here. It was left with kindness but it really ripped me up and sent me spiraling badly. Friday night was long.

Saturday I was still struggling so I decided to go all in and move cleaning out Sean's portion of the apartment up a day. Christeena is moving Thursday so we had planned to do it Sunday but I figured I was alreay miserable so let's just do it. Wow. Rough. I smelled Sean for the first time in four months. I'm so glad I have his things but it was so hard to get them here. Rough day. Rough night.

Today I had Jakob most of the day which saved the weekend for me. It's hard to be too sad with him around. He is such a cutie!

Going to bed now. Still not back to where I was last week but I'll get there.

MISS YOU KIDDO!