Impossible pain. Impossible reality. Tomorrow marks six months. Absolutely impossible. I'm feeling very fragile and very selfish right now. I want you here with me Sean. I want to scream it from the highest mountains. I want you here with me. This is so not right. So unnatural. Miss you more than I can tell you. Love you as much as always. Visit if you can. I need you.

Thanks for the eagle today kiddo. He was beautiful. Made me smile through my tears.