01/29/2007

It's been quite a long time since I've written here but tonight it seems like the right thing to do. I'm not even going to try to describe the hell that the last few months have been. Instead I'm going to say that I'm learning how to live with this new reality. Some days are still so very hard but in general things are softer.

I still miss you every single day kiddo. Today was a rough one. I discovered that the voicemail I'd saved of your voice for the past year somehow disappeared off my cell phone. It felt like losing a bit of you all over again.