Oh honey - Thank you so much for watching over Jason and Jakob today. I know without a shadow of a doubt that you were close protecting them. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Here is how it felt on my end...You know that feeling you get when you bite down on foil with a filling? The one that tingles/hurts every cell of your body? That as close as I can come to describing the shock I felt today when Jason called me crying, with so much fear in his voice, to say that he'd just been in an accident. The world went back into slow motion as my body reacted on a cellular level to the words he spoke. My first thought was "This can't possibly be happening again. Please don't be happening again. I can't do this again." as I ran past Dad yelling over my shoulder, "Jason's been in an accident. I have to get there."

for those of you reading, before I go any further let me first say that Jason is okay. Whiplash but okay. Jakob is perfectly fine. The driver and passengers of the other car are okay. The Blazer is probably totaled and the other car is most definitely totaled but everybody walked away.

Jason was on his way to my house stopped with his signal on to make a left hand turn. The car behind him apparently wasn't paying attention as they sped down the road and rear ended his Blazer. There was about 10 feet of skid marks as they tried to slow down but too little too late. The front end of their car is completely smashed in. They were still going way too fast when they hit him. I'm just glad they were able to walk away.

When I got there Jason was outside the truck holding Jakob with tears running down his face. His neck was hurting but that wasn't the source of his pain. You see he was hurting because the Blazer was yours Sean. I didn't realize until today how important that truck is to Jason. It's his last tangible link to his big brother - his best friend.

Seeing your truck that damaged and knowing that there's a very good chance the frame is bent and that it could be totaled completely devastated Jason. The very real possibility of losing this link to you is bringing so much pain right now. And it's absolutely devastating to me that I can't help him. I know that to a certain extent it's something Jason has to experience to work through it but it hurts me to not be able to help.

Stay close to your baby brother right now Sean. If you can let him know that you'll never be far away - regardless of the outcome with your Blazer. Remind him if you can that it's just a truck and his life, his health and that of his son are so much more important to you.

I love you kiddo. Miss you so much.