04/15/2007

Hey kiddo -

It still astonishes me sometimes to stumble over the unbelievable fact that you aren't just a phone call away. You'd think after 15+ months I'd be kinda used to the idea but I still trip over it everyone once in awhile.

I woke up crying a couple nights ago. I had that awful elephant standing on my chest feeling that I've learned is my heart continuing to break because you're not here. It still hurts. I imagine it will always hurt. Somehow I just thought the waking up in the middle of the night sobbing thing would be over by now. Apparently not. Probably never.

Miss you kiddo. Love you more than I can possibly tell you.