It's been awhile since I wrote a note here but not long at all since I sensed you close. In fact I've felt you closer the last couple weeks than I have for awhile. Maybe I've been looking harder but either way I'm glad you aren't too far away.

Are you done laughing at Jason yet about how he spent his 21st birthday? Did you have something to do with that one? If so, thank you for keeping him safe...even if it wasn't exactly how he had in mind!

And did you have anything to do with yesterday? Even Dad said you were around looking out for us. I just smiled when I realized that what I needed to get us out of that mess was sitting in your wallet -- that was tucked safely in a pocket of my purse as always. I still carry it everywhere with me. You are never far from my thoughts and always in my heart.

And lastly...thank you for sending not one, not two, but three eagles to me in fifteen minutes on our way home from the coast. The song on the radio was "Calling All Angels" and the line said something about needing a sign to know everything was going to be okay. I was trying not to let Dad know I was crying when he pointed out the first eagle. Thank you. I needed that right then. Sometimes I need to be clubbed over the head to remind me that you are right there...always.

I miss you Sean. I'm doing my best to live gracefully with you gone but I just miss you. This is still all so unreal sometimes...