12/10/2007

Happy birthday kiddo.

I'm actually pretty proud of myself today. I did okay. Not perfect but okay. I miss you and I'm not okay with you not being here to celebrate your birthday with us. But I did okay.

I'm still in Portland so I couldn't spend any time at Howarth Park and your bench with you. Your baby brother went out there today though. And when he got there he found six white roses and sealed envelope with your name on it. They are at my house now and when I get home I'll decide if I should open that envelope or maybe just light a candle and send those words to you in its smoke.

You are not forgotten. You live on in my heart, in my memories, and in the lives of the people that you touched. At least one of those people celebrated your birthday today too. So happy birthday Sean. I love you. I'm so very proud of you. And I miss you. Alot. More than I can explain...but you know that. Thank you for staying close to those that love you. We need to feel you close.

Happy Birthday Sean. Happy Birthday. I love you.