So the question is...

WILL THIS DEFINE ME??

Will Sean's death define me? Better... would he want it to?

No...Nope...NO!!

So there lies the challenge...

I will not let your death define me. On the other hand I will not let your life disappear.

You were here for a reason. I don't completely understand all of it but I know I was blessed by your life. And while I refuse to be defined by either your life or your death you are never too far away.

Tonight I heard Jakob introduced as your nephew. Somewhere I'm sure you puffed up, so very proud of this incredible kid, because he is so special. But a little part of me sobbed because I knew if you were here you'd be so proud to hear that....

I miss you Sean. I'm feeling a bit detached right now so visit me if you can. You always made sure you knew where I was and what was going on in my life...I can't imagine its different now.

Love you.