Today marks 27 months. If you had told me 28 months ago that I'd still be surviving after losing my oldest son over two years down the road I would have told you that you were crazy. So much of my life is wrapped up in my boys and I honestly don't know how I got this far and am still relatively sane.

That said I had a melt down today at work. My phone rang and it was the Blood Center asking for Sean. I had forgotten that he used to donate. Why it has been this long since they called and why they called on the 28th of the month is a mystery. All I know is that I completely lost it.

I miss you kiddo. Lots of changes in my life right now so I'm struggling a bit more than usual. Hang out with me if you can. I love you.