There seems to be a whirlwind of situations that are bringing your absence even closer to my heart and I'll admit to struggling more lately than usual.

Yesterday Bjorg took a wrong turn when we were driving home from a training walk and for the first time I found myself traveling the stretch of road you traveled right before your accident. That was tough.

Then I went to the dentist which will somehow always be linked to you in my mind. Dr Johnson always talks about you and always asks how I'm doing. He is a very kind man. Tears for me in the chair.

I have to start seriously packing as we will be moving in just three weeks. Yesterday I stumbled into a bag of your things and for the first time in a long time smelled you. It was wonderful but I found myself with that elephant sitting on my chest for the rest of the day afterwards.

This journey just doesn't get any easier. Softer maybe but never easier. My life has been just so bizarre and unreal for the last 28+ months. Almost like I'm watching someone else live it.

Enough of that. Stay close and don't be shy about reminding us how close you are. I love you so much. Miss you kiddo.